The Truth

Time to spill.

I have been eating like shit lately. Between my birthday, New York, Philadelphia, my golf tournament, the moving/apartment fiasco, June has flown by, and my healthy eating habits have basically gone amiss.

It's no secret that I'm an emotional eater. When things get stressful, I turn to food, and if you didn't know me and caught me in a stress eating moment, you might think I was starving. It's hard to explain the feeling, but I'm sure other stress eaters can relate. If there is food in front of me, it's like I can't shove it into my mouth quickly enough. Today for example, around lunch time I was feeling overly stressed about a couple of different things. Instead of going out for a normal lunch, or taking a walk, or doing ANYTHING else, I decided to go over to the tray of pastries left over from a morning event and eat a croissant in three seconds. Then I picked up another one and ate it. There is never a time when eating two croissants in 10 seconds is necessary (unless you're visiting Paris).

This has happened a couple of times over the past few weeks. But it's not just when I'm stressed. On the whole, my eating has just been terrible. I haven't been making healthy choices when going out, I've been drinking more casually, and I haven't been food shopping. I just don't really know what's gotten into me.

Not surprisingly, my exercise habits have dwindled as well. I have still been hitting the gym a few times a week, but not anything near what I've been consistently doing since October. I decided last week it was time to kick it up a notch and took an intense spinning class on Thursday. This week I went to my normal total body strength class and was the only one there. I basically got a free personal training session and the instructor decided to concentrate on the moves she knows I struggle with (hello, lunges and pushups). It was insane. But awesome.

Today, I pushed myself to get back on the pavement and went for a 3 mile run. I really tried to challenge myself and incorporated a bunch of hills and even some running on the beach. It was tough, but it felt REALLY good to be running again.

I post these things on here for some accountability. I hope by spilling that I can start tomorrow with a clean slate and stop carrying around whatever baggage has been pushing me toward these unhealthy habits. Everyone goes through busy/tough times and I just need to get through this one. And hopefully not come out of it 10 pounds heavier.