This is Not Optional

It's only 11 and I'm ready to go home. I woke up feeling energized and ready for the day and all of that went down the drain after just one phone call. The basic gist of this is that when I started at my new job about a year ago I was hired to replace someone (in a team of 3, I was the "lowest" level). A few months later the person at the middle level quit and didn't get replaced. I suddenly found myself in a still very new job, doing the work of 2 people. And that's how it still is today. I'm planning an event for work that I haven't felt comfortable doing from the start. Today I got a random call from someone who used to be heavily involved but wasn't this year (despite 5+ emails and phone calls I sent trying to set up a meeting) where he basically criticized my efforts thus far and told me I wasn't doing enough. Excuse me? I'm far too sensitive when it comes to these things and wanted to hang up on him and go cry in the bathroom. I'm not afraid to say it: I don't know what I'm doing. I'm more than happy to take help from anyone, but don't criticize me and then give me nothing to work on. The two women who worked on this event had been here for 5 and 3 years; this is my first job out of college and I'm still in my first year here. I don't know why this bothered me so much. It's still bothering me. I want to go home. Argh!

Alright rant over. Last night I went to spinning for the first time in months and it was great! I really tried to push myself and really do everything the instructor said (ahem, a full turn up means a full turn up, etc.). She was a bit of a drill sargent and I loved it. Sometimes she would get off her bike and walk around the room yelling at us to do things. At one point she told us to stand up and sprint and when some people didn't do it she yelled "THIS IS NOT OPTIONAL" -- no way was I not listening to that.

I love when trainers/teachers go crazy. It doesn't happen nearly enough. Speaking of trainers going crazy, this never gets old:

After spinning I came home to make dinner. I was planning on eggs but (surprisingly) wasn't feeling it, so I dug out a frozen Butter Chicken meal from Trader Joe's I've had for a while. I don't know what I was thinking when I bought this. I have such a weird issue with chicken that's not cooked in a restaurant/my kitchen and NEVER eat chicken in frozen meals. I gave this a shot and as soon as I got to a semi weird piece (about 3 bites in) I had to throw it all away. I ended up just eating the rice covered in sauce then grabbed an apple with some peanut butter. The flavor of the sauce was actually really good and I'd recommend this to anyone who isn't a picky chicken freak like me.

 

Breakfast today was a big bowl of cheerios and a banana, and lunch will be a salami sandwich with carrots and a few clementines.

This weather sucks, it's May! Where is the sun!?