A Healthy Day

Yesterday morning I went to see a nutritionist. It's something I've wanted to do for years but the cost has always prevented me from doing so. I reached out to a highly recommended nutritionist a few weeks ago and decided to set up an initial free consultation with her. We spent about an hour talking about my history, my struggles with eating, and what brought me in that day. When I walked in the door I was actually nervous for that last question: what was bringing me in? Why was I there?

After babbling for a few minutes, here's what I came up with: this is not about the actual weight I've put on. Yes, I'm not happy carrying around this extra weight, but what worries me more is that fact that I was so sure I had ingrained new life-long habits in myself. I spent years working toward a goal of "healthiness for life" -- is that a thing? Do even the healthiest of us get caught up sometimes? I don't know. I spent years reading, learning, listening to my body and making decisions. Decisions like trying to eat as much real, unprocessed food as possible, decisions to stop counting calories, decisions to be the type of person who exercises regularly. I was sure these things weren't just temporary, they were part of me. I just feel a little bit lost and I don't know how I got so far from that place where I thought I had reached for good.

Anyway, I'm not sure if I'm going to continue to see her. Price is still a major issue for me. I struggle with the idea of paying someone to relay knowledge that I already know. She said it herself -- I have all the right tools and knowledge, I just need to re-find my motivation. She told me we all get lost and off track, and sometimes we just need a push in the right direction before we can go on our own way again. She suggested meeting with her for the next 3-6 months, and spreading out sessions in whichever way worked within my budget. I just don't know if it's worth it. I told her I was going to take some time to think about it. In the meantime, I feel like just having that very raw conversation with her has reignited that motivation in me a bit. I wrote yesterday that I wanted to have a fully healthy day today and I succeeded. For some reason taking this first step has been so incredibly hard. But today I woke up feeling committed to today.

I started off with cheerios and a juicy apple from Whole Foods.

I packed my lunch last night and had a turkey sandwich (just turkey and bread, pretty exciting), a little bag of snap peas and cherry tomatoes, some pretzels & mixed nuts, and some clementine-type fruit.

Around 4:00 I had 2 hard boiled egg whites and a Hershey kiss for something sweet!

When I got home from work I went to the gym to run. I walked for 5 minutes then did the following:
5 min run - 2.5 min walk
4 min run - 2 min walk
3 min run - 1.5 min walk
2 min run - 1 min walk
5 min run - 2.5 min walk
2 min run
5 minute cooldown

This went so fast! I was done before I knew it. I went to Tom's after and made us dinner. On the menu was baked ziti (made with pasta, lean ground turkey, part skim mozzarella cheese, fat free ricotta cheese and Whole Foods brand sauce). It wasn't amazing but I think it came out pretty well!

I could have used some extra vegetables during dinner but I'm feeling pretty good about the day! Hoping to feel this way tomorrow too. I'm off to bed, good night!