It is what it is

I'm getting ready to head out to the Berkshires for the next few days and I thought it was an appropriate time to address the unspoken. I considered just quietly skipping over this, but this blog is about my life and this has been a significant part of it, so here it is. Nearly two months ago Tom and I broke up. As break ups tend to do, this has brought out a multitude of overwhelming emotions in me. Mostly, this break up has been extremely hard for me to make sense of, but the reality is that it happened, and despite what I want or think, there's nothing I can do about it.

Essentially, "it is what it is"... 

I've spent some time reading through my earliest posts where I was still struggling through the break up that sparked the creation of this blog. I'm trying to find solace in the fact that I did get through it eventually, and I came out of that break up a better, happier, more confident person. This is quite a different situation and the break ups really aren't comparable except that they both hurt like hell, but I'm choosing to believe that time will bring clarity and eventually I will feel right again.

In the meantime, I'm just trying to take it one day at a time and suck as much pleasure out of life as possible. I'm really trying to focus on things that are familiar, positive, and have the potential to improve my mood. I have so much in my life to be grateful for:

- My family, who love me so unconditionally and really believe that I am special and worthy of everything good in the world.

- My friends, who also love me unconditionally and have been there for me -- no questions asked -- through all of the good and bad times in my life.

- My mind, which is (mostly) rational, self-loving and introspective.

- My job, because it's secure, rewarding, and my coworkers see me as a human being.

- My health.

- My affinity for exercise and the endorphins that come with it.

- Books, for being a distraction like nothing else.
- Living in a city where I can walk everywhere.

- My comfy (albeit squeaky) bed.

- Nice, warm days.
- Having friends who live in various places where I can travel to.
- Knowing family and home are just a short plane/bus/train ride away.
- Pop music and Glee songs, for getting me through the work day.
- Having money in the bank that I can dip into for more frequent traveling and buying myself special things.
- The internet, because you're always just a click away from animals doing cute things or hysterical news bloopers.

How to wrap this up? I expect that this blog will be changing a bit, but mostly I just plan to keep being "me" and will continue to post about the best (and worst) of my days. I've been keeping busy and have some fun things in store, and I'm excited to share them here.

Things will find a way of working out. They always do. Thanks, as always, for listening.