I'm not sure Thanksgiving was quite the holiDAY I was looking for. It definitely wasn't the usual eat-whatever-I-want-until-January-1st type of thing, but it certainly wasn't just one meal. I arrived home on Tuesday night to a kitchen full of goodies. Coming home from college is always a big overwhelming surprise when it comes to food. It's EVERYWHERE! I did pretty well on Wednesday, Thursday started out great with a 5k turkey trot (new traditions what what!) and then led to me literally feasting for the rest of the day/night. The rest of the weekend wasn't too bad, and I avoided the scale yesterday morning so I didn't have to see the damage. I made myself a little deal that if I didn't get 100% back on track immediately, I was going to weigh in that night. Luckily, I comfortably settled back into my routine with a smile. I ran 5 miles last night and headed over to Whole Foods right after to stock up for the week. I really do feel happy to be back in routine-mode.
This week at home was pretty emotional, and the exaggerated emotions must have packed themselves up in my suitcase to join me in Boston. Last night I made myself a little pizza for dinner, and when I accidentally dropped it face down on the dirty floor I actually started crying - yes, real pizza-induced tears. Luckily my roommate was fast acting and scraped the pizza off the floor while demanding that I just make a new one. I eventually sat happily on the futon eating my pizza and some delicious marinated mushrooms out of my new pretty blue bowl. Ah, the little things.
I had a rough week back in New York and my mind is once again consumed with thoughts of Jonas. An accidental run-in (I think I 'law-of-attracted that happening...) combined with the fact that Jonas lives 30 seconds from my house and the perpetual reminders of what our relationship used to be made for a one seriously melancholy girl. It's very hard for me to not associate home with Jonas. Over the past 5 years I've been back and forth between New York and Boston - my friends and family were always busy with their lives and jobs, so most of my time was spent with Jonas (who never had a job, what a catch). It was a huge adjustment to be at home without him but I'm relieved to know that this weekend was the first step and the worst it will ever be. I hope that I will begin to naturally associate home with my amazing family and wonderful friends - I really look forward to a day when I can be 100% happy to be going home. I'll be back in NY in just over 3 weeks, I can already feel the anxiety boiling...
In the meantime, I have to remember that I have a lot to look forward to both in the short and long term! Just to make myself smile, here is my after-work schedule for the week :)
Tonight: getting together with my bffs for a fundraiser followed by zumba! a week off has made me seriously miss my favorite pastime
Wednesday: Top Chef All Stars!!
Thursday: more zumba :)
Friday: no work! and senior's cocktail party
Saturday: annual big college party - not really my scene but something funny happens every year
Sunday: HARRY POTTER
What do you think I'm the most excited for...?
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